Dear Potential Fan Base:)
By now, I am well aware that after reading my last post, many of you think that I am extremely pathetic and unhappy. Wellll, you are right...at least for the present moment. The good news is that this dramatic and dismal man-hating mood will not last forever. Anybody who knows me knows that I have extreme highs and extreme lows. I am a relationship bi-polar. Luckily, there are a lot more highs than there are lows. I just happened to start a blog in the middle of a low. Rest assured that this to shall pass and if it doesn't, I like my mother, and her like her mother, will eat my way to happiness one french fry at a time.
Unlike most people, I don't keep anything inside. I am not ashamed of my emotions. I am not ashamed to say I get lonely sometimes and want more than causal sex, a shitload of platonic friendships or a marriage to Jesus. When I am happy you will know and when I am sad you will know. I have found that when you are depressed (i.e. dating black men) your own thoughts can often be your worst enemies. Trying to process dating, relationships, family and friends alone is like counting money in front of family......a bad idea. My therapy is sharing my thoughts with others and this blog is my sounding board.
I have come to quickly realize another added benefit of blogging -- before ever asking me out on a date, any potential date who reads my blog will already have at least some idea that I am somewhat crazy. So if you don't want these apples than don't shake my tree!
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This blog is very brave. By reading Essence and Ebony you would think that all Black men were happily escaping us terrible angry black women and living lives of leisure as homosexuals or with white woman. I guess gay or straight, genuine people who want to be in meaningful relationships have the same struggles. I too, am sitting here surprised because I put you in the Halle Berry Column. Women like to say, If Halle can’t find a man, then what can the rest of us do.” So I am surprised that you are having trouble finding a man. I guess if more of them got off the down low and out of my way, you would have more to choose from.
ReplyDeleteThanks for providing an outlet for yourself and others. I will definitely seek some advice since you offered. Worry and Fear suck really bad. Even me, Ms. Positivity is having more rough days lately, with all my self help books and Joel Osteen episodes saved on DVR. Well, I will keep my eyes open for someone who is comfortable in their own skin for you, please do the same for me.
Love it!..lmao! ..,you are mos def one crazy brother! lol! But, in a strange way...kinda like how Pluto went ghost on some shyt...I understand exactly what you mean. Well, maybe not the shaking the tree for apples part(some country shyt...lol!)
ReplyDeleteI love that phrase...My slow behind just realized you have a blog...I read "As only sistahs can" part 1 but never looked further into the page till today...by the way just finished part 2 and 3 and cant wait for more...I hope you know how good you are..I'm sure you do...your blog is definitly a page scroller (page turner)..Love Love Love it.
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